Yesterday and today have made up the worst days of my life. I had to leave behind London and be shipped back to New York. I have never been more devastated in my life. There are no truer words than "you do not realize what you have got until its gone." I am have hit rock bottom, but like it is said, if you fall off the horse you have to get right back on it again.... so I am determined to get my act together and return back to my 'home' this winter.